…Two Steps Back.
I feel so overwhelmed with everything right now it seems as though I’ve taken five steps back. And I’m not entirely sure I’ve taken one step forward for awhile. The holistic journey is a tough one. Even within the holistic community, there are differing views about everything–how to eat, what to buy, what kind of doctor to see. It feels like too much sometimes.
So I’ve taken my oldest son, Daniel, to In N Out for lunch twice this month. And I put two pieces of chocolate in each cubby of his Advent calendar. And I’ve been using paper towels again. And because I got out of the habit of cleaning the toilets every Friday, I had to use bleach to clean them. And there’s more. But lest this turns into a confessional of all my non-holistic sins, I will leave it there.
I hope that I will feel some renewal in the new year. My in-laws are taking us all on a winter vacation in BC, Canada in January. I hope that the rest and help that come from being all together as a big family will provide me with some space to breathe and recoup.